an indomitable nature of a man

“Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must outrun the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning in Africa, a lion wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the slowest gazelle, or it will starve. It doesn’t matter whether you’re a lion or gazelle – when the sun comes up, you’d better be running.”
- Unknown

“Good things come slow – especially in distance running.”
- Bill Dellinger, University of Oregon coach

“If you ever get a second chance in life for something, you’ve got to go all the way.”
- Lance Armstrong

“Anybody can do just about anything with himself that he really wants to and makes his mind to do. We are capable of greater than we realize.”
- Norman Vincent Peale, author

“Running is a big question mark that’s there each and every day. It asks you, ‘Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?’”
- Peter Maher, Irish-Canadian Olympian and Sub-2:12 marathoner

“He who fears being conquered is sure of defeat.”
- Napoleon Bonaparte

“We run, not because we think it is doing us good, but because we enjoy it and cannot help ourselves. The more restricted our society and work become, the more necessary it will be to find some outlet for this craving for freedom. No one can say, ‘You must not run faster than this, or jump higher than that.’ The human spirit is indomitable.”
- Sir Roger Bannister, first man to break the four minute mile

“The man who can drive himself further once the effort gets painful is the man who will win.”
- Sir Roger Bannister

“Most men take the straight and narrow. A few take the road less traveled. I chose to cut through the woods.”
- Unknown

“Hills are speedwork in disguise.”
- Frank Shorter

“There’s no such thing as bad weather, just soft people.”
- Bill Bowerman

“How does a kid from Coos Bay, with one leg longer than the other win races? All my life people have been telling me, ‘You’re too small Pre’, ‘You’re not fast enough Pre’, ‘Give up your foolish dream Steve’. But they forgot something, I HAVE TO WIN.”
- Steve Prefontaine

“Running is the greatest metaphor for life, because you get out of it what you put into it.”
- Oprah Winfrey

从MarathonRookie上摘的句子，越读越有力

Keep on keeping on

最后还是回到了这里。尝试了各种办法把这里重新开通，庆幸当初没一冲动把所有的内容都删了，然后再重新开始。
这两天心情不错，一时间好像想明白了很多事情。上周我主动放弃了现在这份新的工作，在不到一个月的probation结束前，老板和同事们都有些吃惊和诧异，身边的朋友也都说我疯了，很多人都觉得那是一份很不错的工作。但我不觉的，换了是几年前我可能会义无返顾地投入进去，但现在我会觉得这份工作不属于我，甚至会觉得它过于轻浮和没有安全感。
周末，一个好朋友结婚，去当了伴郎，还和其他几个伴郎伴娘一起为他们一起录了首歌，不知道他们选来选去，为什么选了一首老歌，唱的我心里和嘴边各种味道。歌名叫水晶。
明天是我在这家公司的last day,这两天每天中午吃完饭都会在公司附近找个没人的地方晒晒太阳，感觉春天还没来得及去享受夏天就要来了。工作还是没有定下来，但感觉很快就会有个结果了。希望感觉是对了。
几天没去跑步，晚上刚开始跑前做了很长时间的热身，刚开始跑了没多久就开始有些喘不过气，没一会儿还会觉得肩膀有些痛，但好在还是坚持跑完了，并且稍有意外的是跑完后膝盖没有之前经常出现的痛感，应该是这次热身做的比较充分。明天还准备继续跑。
很久没碰书了，手边堆了不少新书，回国前买的，但一直都没看。Once a Runner看了一半，准备这周读完。读完了准备专门写篇感受。今天作息时间又乱了，睡啊。’keep on keeping on’这是奥运前认识的一个朋友经常跟我说的一句话。
最近还觉的一绝话很经典”all the human wisdoms can be summed up into two words: wait and hope”, well let’s just keep on keeping on WAIT AND HOPE.

证明题-摘自槽边往事

是安于现在的生活并且学着享受庸常，还是甘冒下坠的风险振翅飞往远方？这是我最近在《树洞》里经常看到的问题。说实话，我也觉得非常惊奇，竟然有那么多人觉得现实在一点点埋葬自己的梦想，同时又没有足够的勇气跨出一步。每次说到看不到的山那头，海的那一端，总有无数颗小心在各个地方黯然破碎。仿佛一夜之间经过了四十个星球，却没有一个星星上能种出玫瑰花来。

人们写信来，索要帮助和建议。但是我又能做什么呢？我的人生是我的人生，我的经验是我的经验，未必对你有用。况且，我安于这样的生活，命运如此安排，而换做别人，怕是不能把这其中的一日当作清凉无梦的午后安睡。我们习惯于看到各种甜睡的面孔，却少有人上前掀起床单来，看到下面密密麻麻的钉子。或者是像张爱玲说过的那样，在这一袭华美的裘衣下欣赏挤挤挨挨的虱子。答案我们都知道：睡在哪里，都是睡在雨里。只是所有人都顽固地坚持认为，在这个世界的某个角落里，会有属于自己的屋檐下的一张小床。

那些写成功学的人会告诉你一个单词：选择成本。在A和B之间漫长而痛苦地选择，浪费的是宝贵的时间。选择本身并没有对错，然而犹豫却会让一切慢慢成灰。传统智慧在纸张和口头上一直流传着冰冷冷的劝戒：心比天高，命比纸薄。让人打消一切妄念，老老实实过自己的小日子。可是，可是远方就在那里，在太阳落下的山背后，在桅杆消失的地平线深处。传说飘来飘去，有人的确远走高飞，而且并没有死无葬身之地。

我想，无论是过哪一种人生，都有各自的理由，背后也有种种不得已。问题仅仅在于我们把生活当作了手中的那个苹果，我们总是把光鲜靓丽的一面示人，自己永远面对着有虫洞的那一面。所以，总的看下来别人手里的苹果总要更好些，却少有人去想别人很可能面对了一条更肥大壮硕的虫子。佛教里把这种视角称之为平常心，可惜拥有这种视角的人总是少之又少。

应该承认，这是一种困苦，一重磨难。谁都年轻过，所以谁都心比天高过，但是未必每个人都曾经飞过。每天的生活里，都可以看到许多振翅高飞的故事，以至于让现实变得更加让人难以忍耐。有必要做一次全民性的概率论普及，告诉所有人那些值得上报章电视的例子全都是特例，在每一双翱翔云团的羽翼之下，都有无数累累白骨，它们没有阳光，只有遗忘。在保持目光向上的同时，应该了解大数平均的铁律—绝大多数人必须要过着庸常的生活，这是所有人所无法逃避的命运。

唯一的问题是不曾有人赞扬，去赞扬一个每天下班骑车买菜的丈夫，一个每夜给孩子讲睡前故事的母亲，一个愿意寸步不离、膝下承欢的儿子，一个在沙发上陪伴父母看韩剧削水果的女儿。媒体在赞扬李开复、唐骏，在开列财富榜单，把最多的时间和最大的荣耀给了最少的人。让人觉得买菜讲故事全无价值，必须出人头地、衣锦还乡一个人的一生才没有虚度。要去讲冒险的故事，讲远走高飞的故事，讲所有关于远方闪闪发光的故事，才有人要去听。

所有这些故事里永远不会问一个问题：你是谁？太多人觉得自己不应该过目前的生活，但是又有多少愿意为些微的改变而付出丝毫代价？只要是个人都会说：我要按照我自己的心意生活。但是，你又能为你的意愿支付多少成本？这还不用说到遥远的未来，遥远的某地，只是说你在这一时，这一地，你愿意为了你的梦想不计成败利钝做了点什么？飞翔是一种能力，在振翅远飞前你得证明自己能够浮在空气里。

需要走一段人生路，才能够区分什么是“欲望”，什么是“梦想”。欲望会在清晨醒来之后的沐浴中消散，在目睹摩天大厦、宝马香车时重新升起。而梦想却在你走出几步被击倒之后，依然照耀在面前，让你咬牙含泪却依然翻身爬起，继续追逐。欲望让人觉得自己很重要，而梦想却让自己变得很轻很轻，轻到采取任何举措都不会犹豫再三。欲望让人在选择之间备受煎熬，求神问卜，梦想却让人迈出一步，然后是第二步、第三步。

如果只是拥有欲望而无梦想，最合理的方式是熄灭它。与其满足它们的全部，不如克服其中之一。只有欲望才会构成选择题，所以任何一个选项之下都有你的欲火熊熊燃烧，让人倍觉煎熬。如果认为自己胸怀梦想，那么就从心念一动就去做证明题，证明你愿意为此承担后果，证明你有这个能力把空想变成现实。拥有梦想的人不做选择题，他们只做证明题。

been with a rush

The truth of been with a rush is we can’t rush our lives, as well as others, no matter how wonderful the feeling of being in a rush, rush is not purchasable or tradeble…In fact, life is too long to be a rush, and it’s not just about taking a rush, or live on that rush. However, it’s more about taking control of ourselves, the control of the feeling for a rush, or the control of the speed more importantly…because maybe the meaning of our lives isn’t just about a rush at the end. Maybe it’s more about slowing down a little bit, and just embrace every minute of it without thinking the next…

 

I’m suffering a complication after a rush lately, or maybe a rush of the speed more exactly. Now, i guess, i found a prescription which might works on the pain and the complication for a while. I’m not sure how long it might works, but all I learned from this, this time, is to take care of myself in the hope that it won’t happen and I will not suffer again.

 

I’m just alright, my friends. And I know the style maybe is a bit womanish, but i’m not gay, please do not say that. I’m just emotional, we all get emotional sometimes, or maybe some of you do not, I don’t know. Anyway, I wish you all doing well, and I see you soon, I hope.

 

take care,

 

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been deluded

people get married, but why do people get married? and do people has to get married?

many of my friends either are already get married or are paving the red carpet for their wedding. i’m about the right age to get married, or at least i should be in a right and solid relationship right now, but … 

The future is just not conceivable for some of us so long as it comes to marriage or a relationship. They are just pathetic on this, or at least, so far they are. I know some people just want to make a difference when it comes to a relationship, or as a matter of fact, they just want to have the happily-ever-after ending, the ideal one with an ideal person. They believe in it, however the truth maybe. It might be just a perverse delusion, or whatever it maybe…they are just stubborn.

or at the very end, there is another explaination, they are childish, immature, they fancy a lot, they only live in their small world with an image never exist, they imagine things, they expect these things to happen, they believe there is the one, and they stick on this belief whole-heartedly.

 

PARADOX

大约一个世纪以前, 美国著名的法学家Oliver Wendell Holmes曾对自己的生活观察发现, 悖论在生活中无处不在. 他发现 "The life of law has not been logic; it has been experience."

似乎一个世纪之后这样的道理也没有什么改变, 即使我们的生活有着如此的变化. 或者, 说生命本身就是一个悖论. 人们无时无刻都要去面临这样的悖论, 面临诸多的选择. 这些看似矛盾实则无意纠结的选择, 只是我们每一个生命体都必须经历的. 因此, 我们无论作出何种选择, 都会因为放弃了另一种选择而感到遗憾. 于是乎, 我们每一个生命和我们生存的世界也就不存在所谓的完美.

"不存在", 突然想起来这是大学里某些队友的口头禅, 每当大家因为什么事情争论不休的时候, 就会有人在角落里冒出一句"不存在"以搏其他人的观点.

终于明白, 人生没必要去太在意很多事情, 很多事情都是一定要发生的, 很多人更是一定要面对的. 我又何必呢, 何必总是瞻前顾后, 总是做那个对人说’Yes’的好好先生, 即使心里想TMD说一万个’No’.

 

不存在.

 

=========================Don’t be perfect, just be wonderful!=========================

很多时候上了车就不太在意方向和沿途的风景, 关心的只是目的地. 但生活并非如此, 而且, 目的地也许并不那么重要.

 

如果能够探头到窗外的话, 也许会多些收获, 至少看得到方向和沿途的风景…

 

不过是个如果